boy,

no matter what i do
i can't shake you off
you eat at me like i'm that cake you most desire
yet i'm not feeling you around anymore
i knew it would come,
i knew you'd let go
but i didn't think you'd slam the door in my face
you're leaving,
and i knew the doom day would come
and i knew you'd say goodbye

so as many times i dive into the water
as many times i try to drown myself
i find myself being saved
and you show no mercy
once i think i can't breathe anymore,
you shove me to the surface
and the atmosphere hits me like a slap in the face
i said hello
and cursed myself, greeting karma behind my back
now i'm learning that you can't trust anyone

boy if you only knew
how much i can't stand that you're slipping away
and how i can't say the two final words

i'm watching you go to the one i knew you'd go to
but i'm seeing her kill you bit by bit
how can i say what's true when she was my friend...
jealousy is all you'll see,
and then i'm so afraid karma will tear me apart
limb to limb
you've already shot me in the heart,
you've already captured my soul
either give it all back,
or come back...

these tears may be for you,
or to my stupidity
hopeless romantic, they say
and yeah i am;
but i never thought you'd kill me piece by piece,

boy if you only knew
how much i can't stand that you're slipping away
and how i can't say the two final words

those two words surface,
and i am so scared
boy i love you too much
if only she loved you..
you're hanging me on by that single thread too long
if i can't have my fairytale,
then give me back my heart,
so i can experience closure,
so i can say what i need to say
let me heal alone.