california girls - katy perry/snoop dog

[Snoop Dogg]
Greetings loved ones
Lets take a journey

[Katy Perry]
I know a place
Where the grass is really greener
Warm, wet and wild
There must be something in the water
Sippin' gin and juice
Laying underneath the palm trees
The boys
Break their necks
Try'na to creep a little sneak peek
(at us)

You could travel the world
But nothing comes close
to the golden coast
Once you party with us
You'll be falling in love
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California girls
We're unforgettable
Daisy Dukes
Bikinis on top
Sun-kissed skin
So hot
We'll melt your popsicle
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California girls
We're undeniable
Fine, fresh, fierce
We got it on lock
West coast represent
Now put your hands up
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

Sex on the beach
We don't mind sand in our stiletos
We freak
In my jeep
Snoop doggy dog on the stereo

You could travel the world
But nothing comes close
to the golden coast
Once you party with us
You'll be falling in love
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California girls
We're unforgettable
Daisy Dukes
Bikinis on top
Sun-kissed skin
So hot
will melt your popsicle
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California girls
We're undeniable
Fine, fresh, fierce
We got it on lock
West coast represent
Now put your hands up
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

[Snoop Dogg]
Tone Tan
Fit and ready
Turn it up cause its gettin' heavy
Wild wild west coast
These are the girls I love the most
I mean the ones
I mean like shes the one
Kiss her
Touch her
Squeeze her buns

The girls a freak
She drives a jeep
In Laguna beach
I'm okay
I wont play
I love the bay
Just like I love LA
Venice beach
and Palm Springs
Summer time is everything

Homeboys
Hanging out
All that a-s
hanging out
Bikinis, tankinis, martinis
No weenies
Just the king and the queeny
Katy my lady
(yeah)
You looking here baby
(uh huh)
Im all up on you
Cause you representing California
(ohhh yeahh)

[Katy Perry]
California girls
We're unforgettable
Daisy Dukes
Bikinis on top
Sun-kissed skin
So hot
will melt your popsicle
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

California girls
We're undeniable
Fine, fresh, fierce
We got it on lock
West coast represent
(West coast, west coast)
Now put your hands up
Oooooh Oh Oooooh

[Snoop Dogg]
(Californiaaa, Californiaaa)
California girls man
I wish they all could be
California girls
(Californiaaa)
I really wish
You all could be
California girls
(Californiaaa, yeah)

memorial day

saw shrek yesterday; tomorrow my brothers go back to school.
it's been an interesting four days, and i feel worn.
kinda sad, i've got a whole summer to enjoy with them.
i hate perfection. we strive so hard for it, so hard to reach the next step, what if we're missing what's right here in front of us instead of what's on the next place.

come, tomorrow.

the prince..

saw prince of persia tonight; it was cute. a bit disappointing, but i liked it. better then the rest of my family did haha
i'm just glad the princess didn't narrate it! haha

VEGGiETALES

so we've watched the pirates who don't do anything, and now we're watching lord of the beans.
veggietales!!!!!
oh yes. that's what my brothers and i are watching. hehehehe


i'm sick :( i feel awful. YUCK,

thursdays blah

good morning thursday... my most boring day in the whole week, i think. mondays might be too; not sure yet.
boo. it's wet outside still :/ yesterday we were supposed to have a "sunbreak" at some point. on my way home from sumner i saw the sun set, partially. sun break? that's a cheater out there, sunshine!

today i:
go to the dentist :( definitely tried to spell out dance there hahaha
STUDY STUDY STUDY
and read my Bible. philippians is calling my name and so is romans.

there we go... okay.
peace.

wednesday night

so i went to a bible study tonight.
eight of us, five boys and three girls counting me. i liked it!!
we'll see how it goes.
i walked in and there is like three guys already who are obviously hyper and were giggling... my eyes were probably open wide. haha
so philipians this week, and it takes off from there.
i guess i kinda like not bringing someone with me, it's kinda cool to make yourself meet people, instead of hiding yourself with the ones you know, break out and say hi. that's what the fellowship is all about, right?

the happiness vs. joy war.
i want to see it pan out and watch God conqueror it all.

summerrrrrr

yeah here i am trying to decide whether i want a 'relaxing' summer or a working summer.
is this bad that i haven't had a relaxing summer since i was ten??
hahaha little money, or lots and no fun?
and this is a hard choice for me, of course. ha i sound ridiculous.
gahh

anyway i just want summer here.

harry potter wins again.

because i am just that big of a harry potter nerd;
i found this quote on a bumper sticker on facebook today:
"i watch Goblet of Fire [fifth book] just to see Edward Cullen die!"

sorry rose, my obsession of harry potter farrrr greater exceeds my dying twilight one. but i love you still.

realization.

"have you ever been in love?
horrible, isn't it?
it opens up your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.
you build all these defenses, you build a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you,
then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...
you give them a piece of you. they didn't ask for it.
they did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you. and then your life isn't your life anymore.
love takes hostages.
it gets inside of you.
it eats you and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends"
turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.
it hurts. not just in the imagination. not just in the mind.
it's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain."
i hate love.


what hurts the most, is when they finally break your heart. and it's the worst pain imaginable, especially since you thought they'd never do so. because they begin to use you, they take you for granted. they lie to you, they go back to you as the railing that keeps them from falling into the sea and drown, and you let them, because you love them too much.
that's when it's time to finally say goodbye, to finally let out the tears you've been holding in, the ones you know you should have let go ages ago, because then you realize it's finally time to say it.
hence the name of my blog - "no more hellos". you cannot say goodbye without first having said hello.
so i'd like to take my heart back now.
goodbye.

6 billion secretssss

my secret? i can't decide if i want to tell you off once and for all, or keep quiet and let you continue to walk over me. tif i tell you, it could lose our friendship. idk if i can sacrifice that.

reality or destiny

when you dream that you are alone,
the reality check of it makes it hit you so much harder.

boy,

no matter what i do
i can't shake you off
you eat at me like i'm that cake you most desire
yet i'm not feeling you around anymore
i knew it would come,
i knew you'd let go
but i didn't think you'd slam the door in my face
you're leaving,
and i knew the doom day would come
and i knew you'd say goodbye

so as many times i dive into the water
as many times i try to drown myself
i find myself being saved
and you show no mercy
once i think i can't breathe anymore,
you shove me to the surface
and the atmosphere hits me like a slap in the face
i said hello
and cursed myself, greeting karma behind my back
now i'm learning that you can't trust anyone

boy if you only knew
how much i can't stand that you're slipping away
and how i can't say the two final words

i'm watching you go to the one i knew you'd go to
but i'm seeing her kill you bit by bit
how can i say what's true when she was my friend...
jealousy is all you'll see,
and then i'm so afraid karma will tear me apart
limb to limb
you've already shot me in the heart,
you've already captured my soul
either give it all back,
or come back...

these tears may be for you,
or to my stupidity
hopeless romantic, they say
and yeah i am;
but i never thought you'd kill me piece by piece,

boy if you only knew
how much i can't stand that you're slipping away
and how i can't say the two final words

those two words surface,
and i am so scared
boy i love you too much
if only she loved you..
you're hanging me on by that single thread too long
if i can't have my fairytale,
then give me back my heart,
so i can experience closure,
so i can say what i need to say
let me heal alone.

how much,

i don't think you understand how much one has a hold of your heart sometimes until you start wishing for that fairytale someone else got
or maybe you do realize it, somewhere in the middle of a smile,
a kiss, a hug,
a hello.
it's amazing how much you can love someone, to the point where you know it'll never work out with each other, you just want the other person to be happy. to want them to be happy with another person, if that's what it takes. to fall for your best friend... yeah, it's great, isn't it?
and they know it; they're torn. but when you have the possibility of having something now, or to pine away for someone you can never have, which would you choose?
that would be the one minor side of the hopeless romantic/
so you can keep on wishing for that fairytale romance, wish it with that one person... and wish yourself away.
yet that hasn't stopped me. helped me. say goodbye... hasn't helped.
how does one fall even more after they can't stand of what the kid does half the time, isn't morally what you should have, and can't decide if they like your ex bestfriend more or you? and how the hell do you try and figure out where you stand, in the one fact that your ex best friend isn't being completely truthful with your lover. souping up from him as much as she can... and he's in over his head.
i remember that stage.
yet here i am. 3000 miles away and hating it all.
wishing i didn't love so much so big and had gotten into the mess i am now.
bah.

today, i am eighteen and a half.

it slowly eats away your innards until you feel nothing but that exagerated starvation of it and are completely numb otherwise. you're going mad. you're driving yourself wild, crazy inside and out because you're fighting with yourself because of this single obsession.

avpm

k i watched AVPM - or A Very Potter Musical, and it's hilarious. love it.

i really wish i could be a better person sometimes :(

11:11pm wish

11:11 comes and passes
my wish remains the same
i close my eyes, smiling
wishing for what our happy never after
might at least show mercy
and i can see your face again...
dreams can go on
but i'm stuck in reality and i almost want it to end
so each night i'll wish the same
no matter how old it seems to get,
if it looks immature or hopeless
cuz if i'm that hopeless romantic
then nothing seems lost..
i'm wishing for you, no matter how long
i'll keep up hope
when i have it no more
because someday, fate will bring you to me
just like it did then

fridaaaay

today is beautiful, and my mom is even in shorts. you know that she predicts it will actually be almost hot today if that happens.
this is very significant, write this down.

i'm starting out in a good mood. and i'm happy about this. because yesterday i was in a terrible mood. well, not terrible, but not in a great mood either. at least it was sunny.

it's funny, everyone's different views of hope. what one sentence can revise it, or one sentence can dehydrate it too.
an excellent quote i found last night - "i'm just a dream away, for dreams can make miles nonexistent"
what a wonderful quote.



anyway. i'm going to go enjoy the sunshineeeeeeeeee
peace.

it's funny how our moods go up and down
every hour, every day
something seen or something watched
completely changes a complete mood.
gah.

afflictions of love?

no one ever understands that there are many forms of love.
to know someone, you do not bash it in their faces of ill demeanor.
love is passionate, but that does not make it all good.
being hurt is great.
being cut in the heart is worse.
perhaps people don't understand, but you can still unconditionally love someone and love them differently then they love[d] you.
someday, perhaps, you'll understand.

betray betray

oh yes; i'm writing this.
i wish you would believe me.
"stroking guys' egos".... girls tend to be vulnerable, scared and are full of that voice in their heads that scream they are unloved, hated, not liked, and will never be with anyone.
we don't trust people, and we. are. not. stroking guys' egos.
any girls you've met and any ones who have told you so are sluts.
as for me. perhaps its like thinking you're going out with someone, and you think you really like them. then you realize that he's not the one. I'M HUMAN.
i'm sorry. i truly, genuinely am sorry. i fucked up. and i'm saying this publicly, maybe you'll get it.
i'm not perfect. i'm sorry i didn't fit your love story, but baby, we're worlds apart. it's the movies where people work out as they never see eachother but glimpses.
i've seen your heart. and you love big. the girl who deserves you is gonna be the luckiest girl in the world.

i've hurt you twice now, i think. perhaps its time to realize just maybe i won't work in your book. don't you ever go thinking you're crap. cuz you're not. you just haven't been found.

i actually want to be friends. but everytime we seem to talk it ends up passionately bitter. i cannot handle bad karma energy like this, because it makes me furious and i attack. i cannot attack! i have all this madness inside of me i'm trying to get rid of, to let die. you igniting the flame is not helping me at all.
if you want to stay friends, do not attack me. i'm sorry i'm not your cinderella.
someday you're going to have to live without love. it happens.
plus, if you ever truly loved me, you wouldn't have all this anger towards me. you'd be a hell of a lot more patient.


i hate men. i truly do. because all they do is make you feel like shit and build you up and make you think you're something special, something worth fighting for, and then they dump you the next day on a cement floor covered in glass. why even bother with them?

you're not the only one who has been hurt by someone, you know. and no it's not all about me either.
well at least i know one of the more real sides of you now. i'm glad, there's not hidden corners.
and now, just to top it all off, you've got me crying. and i'm not just saying that for kicks.
if you "knew" me, like you say you do, you'd believe it.
end.

wednesday sunshine

well. it's been interesting.
sometimes i wonder how i'd feel to be right next to me watching myself.
moods. that's all i weave in and out of.


well i did not say anything about my new job.
i love it. sure, i've only had my fourth class so far, [third day], but it's great.
wednesday morning i've got a class at 10:30 - today i had seven little girls. last week i had four with two little boys..
saturdays i have two classes, again at 10:30 and then at 11:15.
my second class, the one for 6-9 year olds is full.
my earlier class is almost full. wowzers.
but fun. i'm enjoying what i'm doing so far and am enthusiastic!!
i'm hoping i have more :]

hoist the colors

The seas be ours,
And by the powers,
Where we will, we'll roam.

Yo Ho, haul together,
Hoist the colours high,
Heave Ho, Theives and Beggars,
Never Shall We Die!

Some men have died,
And some are alive,
And others sail on the sea,
With the keys to the cage...
And the Devil to pay,
We lay to Fiddler's Green!

The Bell has been raised,
From it's watery grave...
Do you hear it's sepulchral tone?
We are a call to all,
Pay heed the squall,
And turn your sail toward home!

Yo Ho haul, together,
Hoist the colours high
Heave Ho, Theives and Beggars,
Never Shall We Die!

when one hears and listens,
and is deeply passionate,
you promise and rave
but the next day i do not understand
what is this grasp you have on me?
let go of me..

idk if you know this,

ungrateful?

i hate not being able to decide something
i feel horrible and insecure
should i go because its a family thing?
my mother told me that she doesn't want me to go if i don't want
and that i haven't shown excitement to going...
it's just a movie
now i feel like i'm disappointing my mother.
it's just a movie! jeez on my part
yet i am guilty
i'm undeserving
i want to see it more then my mother thinks,
cuz when she had plans for it i just didn't want to see it then
i didn't want to see it on mother's day, because we had other plans... idk.
gahhhhh

saturday! saturday!

saturday is hereeeee
and it's full of sunshine blisssssss
work today and that's two classes.
perhaps i'm hanging out with rose!
movie possibly later tonight..
food somehow is fitting in all that,
as well as buying my mother a gift.. lol

pretend i'm just not there

the ups, the downs, the turn arounds; but every thought turns back to you no matter what, no matter how
get outta my head i need not you, you're more then i bargained for, it's a year or more
we said goodbye, and that is that
yet here i am as time goes by
wishing that i could fly

so i'm pasting on that smile you asked for
even though you'll never see it
sometimes i wish we couldn't talk
perhaps then i wouldn't love

my brother accepted Christ tonight.

first day..

FIRRRRRST DAY OF THE JOB COMING UP!!!
i'm excited :]

tuesday was better.

wow

thank you cold shoulders!
going into a church that rejects you, that doesn't like you, the church which has the most drama leading it all, and all we wanted to do was support someone.
does every have to be so damn judgeful? it makes us want to judge right back!
go ahead, makes us feel so fucking uncomfortable and awkward...
makes me want to just cuss ya'll back out and judge :(
you call yourself christians?


and the subjects. oh the stupid subjects.

is it humanly possible for you not to stalk?
to sound like one... i almost wonder your purpose

tick tock

like a bomb...

facebook = YUCK

i'm starting to really dislike facebook. a lot.
i have aim, i have msn messenger.
i even have yahoo.

not that any people have my blog.. so it's not like people are seeing this at all....