tonight is not the night for me..

tonight was unproductive; i'm so irritated by some events that i feel like crying.
i'm on that fateful roller coaster again.. i'm trying to keep my hands up this time; knowing i'm no longer on that wooden scary one. i'm on the metal one God placed me on.

work tomorrow; woo-hoo. lol.

i'm a mess. i feel horrible; and i'm also sick.
idk maybe i'm just pmsing... [i know you all wanted to hear that]


help me God, take me away
take me from those words i heard
from the man who told me,
he had the key to my broken heart
when really i had the sword again
how many times had i believed such a story
and i fell for it; again and again
how many times have i been told;
until i have nothing left to hold
God lift me up and take me away

away from that "knight" who painted his steed in white,
who's shining armour turned to rust, is beginning to sing his sweet poetry again
pretty words; face in mask
so convincing...
cover my ears and take me away

heal me from this monstrous fate
and lead me to greater things
for i am yours, and yours only
your love is better then any other.