and a bah humbug to you ;D

wow, for once i am behind on my blogging.
i have nothing exciting to talk about, really.
what has happened this past week, you wonder? hmm...

- work. stressful, grumpy, dreadful work. each day is a battle for motivation; each day i come home with a new reason to switch jobs. alas, with college coming up next fall, i really should not switch now...
- church. now that one is good. i love monday nights, each time i get more and more sucked into the high of Jesus Christ. i want him to be my king and i am getting there.
- drama. oh how usual it seems to become part of my life every freaking day. gahhhhhh. a friend has now told me that i stabbed her in the back because of. a. stupid. boy. oh; two, actually. yeah, nice to have a second chance [the 20th billion time of one] friend get you again. she is now not talking to me, and says she can never trust me.
- dance. ahh i'm dancing once or twice a week, so lovely... whilst dreaming of next year - cornish :D

idk... perhaps God is teaching me about loneliness.... i do forget all we need is him. perhaps this is the time to remember this. i've lost too many friends to care about it anymore; hardly. very sad indeed.

haha i find myself desiring a boy; one to trust with myself. there i have it again - i need no one. God i can trust. never need anyone else. but how hard, is that?
i find myself wishing for more, everyday. i need nothing else, i have more then i need already. i also complain way too much. why complain? i have a home, a future [ think lol], family, a job.
i can beat myself up, all i want. i seem to be ungrateful for christmas this year, without even realizing it. and that just makes me cry. that i'm completely ungrateful for what i have.
well, as i close this, remember, people, to think about what is most important of all, this christmas.