"in a matter of time, those feelings come to pass; but not before they pass again and again"

my oh my, am i behind on blogging... december is such an interesting month. my thoughts run this way and that, half the time i have no idea what i'm doing, or what i am...
it's not that i'm lost, it's more that i'm in a trance of someone else.... so hard to explain.

so christmas has come and passed, way too fast...
my mom and dad have surprised me yet again.. :]
i was proud of my brothers, and glad everyone liked my gifts.
but, as christmas does every year, it marks another year. again and again. as my schedule is messed up and my sleeping hours are crazy, i seem to be in a state.. of what? i do not know.
thoughts run back to the past, even though i often am nostalgic.
ideas spring up, yet i am a coward to work with them,
but would it be a brave attempt to go with them? or crazy?

clueless i stumble; arms out for the Lord.....

so as the day after christmas comes to and end, blindly i go..