i miss you?

it's funny how those little things set you off.
like when something happens and it makes you go "oh," and then hits you like BAM!

realizations make you miss a person right then and there at that moment.
especially those types where those instances where just for a moment, you actually miss that person; not the memories, not the stories, and not the dreams. you miss the person, and what that person did for you.
that's usually when you realize why; why you haven't let them go, and why you still love them.


oh the woes of life. of love. of us.
teenage angst? i'm not even sure if that's it anymore.
i want more. i want a difference.
i want to be able to look back without regrets and say yes, that was one of the best times of my life, and be over it.
because once you step forward, you can't step back. no matter how hard we try.
i want to be able to stop wishing it was that way, because i'm never going to get it back. but damnit the harder i try, the harder it is to let go.
it's not like it's going to happen. it can't. you'd think i'd learn.
life's fucked up. haha x]