my mind is a ravaging pool of thoughts i must put down

i wanna be able to put trust in there
i want to be able to love unconditionally
i want to give in
and i want to hold back
i am torn and divided, freaking and sane
i want to know why, of all people, you laid your eyes on me
curiouser and curiouser
i wonder why people have so many judgements reserved for people
and how we got to be such good friends in so little time
i laugh at my stupidity and figure God is laughing harder
i'd actually like to walk normal again and not be sore for dance for once...
i'm shouting to the Lord on how i'm finding that love for dance again
i want to scream songs again on a drive
and tell you the song i'm feeling for you
and to be held by arms that promise of not letting go
i want to be loved.
can this be granted?
can it be done?
i want to trust someone with my deepest darkest secrets, and to be able to hold theirs

i seem to want and need a lot of things.
how weird this earth is.
how great our God is.