green.....

i find myself trying to control my mind, for jealousy is striking hard and fast.
just days before, i was ecstatic for a friend[s]; now this 'deathly hallow' has erupted me, and i am corrupted. [not to say i wasn't before...]
i hate this feeling. it's not that i'm not happy, because i am. it's just the fact that little monster is saying "where's your fairytale"?
why...
as it's eating at me, i look for new tactics for myself, and for this mind of mine...