love, love, loveee

i can't get over love.
i hate it, and i love it. i'm tired of holding back, i'm tired of waiting.
i hate patience!
this kid, i swear, i'm almost thinking i'm falling in love with. gahhhh he's my best friend, and i've come to terms and have realized that he's sooo much more to me then i knew. ever since fourth of july, we bared our souls under the stars, and it's been so fucking weird!!!!!!!!
we're at that point where we're both best friends, yet we're teetering on the edge of being more.
he's seriously scared of relationships :( and it's so hard to talk to him about it. just about us in general.

we got to parks and hang out :]]]]]


love. is. retarded.
and i'm crazily inside of it.

the slowest form of suicide is taking control. deep down it's filtering; out through my soul. the thorns of love, how bittersweet...


i'm here, i'm frustrated, i'm waiting, i'm over; but i won't let go.
i'll be sitting there; and i'll be ready.
when you find the crossroads, don't choose between left or right.
go to the middle, for that's where you'll find me.
there'll be that mountain the climb, obstacles in the way.
i'm up there, waiting, watching the stars align for you.
i'll put that map in the sky, just follow it.
go past the milky way,
i'm next to the big dipper ♥