why is it, when i tend to start to trust a person again, they betray me?
i hate people. you'd think i'd learn. especially by how that particular person acted AGAIN before. oh no. never seem to. because it just happened again!
i've lost so many friends because of this. it keeps happening. maybe i'm supposed to be a hermit or something. set myself apart from everyone because Lord knows i can't seem to keep friends with me.
"each betrayal begins with trust; for one should rather die than be betrayed. there is no deceit in death. it delivers precisely what it has promised. betrayal, though ... betrayal is the willful slaughter of hope."
i cried myself to sleep last night. why? a friend i thought i trusted, thought i had gained back trust from, after she betrayed me before, told me i was stealing her guys to flirt with. she "didn't like that. it was rude."
she wouldn't tell me what was wrong, but i could tell something was wrong; i finally get the truth from her and i was reduced to a single soul without a castle to guard me, for i thought i had found a friend who could come in again. ohhhh no. she also tells me she doesn't trust me, and that she doesn't know why.... oh and that no one knows the real her.
after i got her truth out, i told her she had me in tears and i was going to bed.
her last response?
"what did i say?"
{Note: those who read the 'found a friend to come in', please don't find that offensive; i'm a very fragile person}
