earthly earthy earth?

tuesday has come and gone as quickly as a blink of an eye. well... the hours were slow, but the day zoomed on.
i went and dropped off apps and resumes.. but yeah.

the afternoon was well spent with the possibilities i pondered but did not apply myself to. does that make me a disappointment? or average?



i find that the simplest things can please me, but yet they all are things that can frustrate me...
who am i, to doubt my life? who am i to judge the earthly things around me... to be grounded, is that right? to become one with the earth? or is it better to fly far away up high and above?

do i speak in tongues to everyone, or am i clear as a blue sky?




for once in my life i am insecure. and i don't like it. i know what i'm hear for. i'm doing a pretty bad job of it.
i'm moody every day every minute every second. when things don't go my way i want to pull a tantrum.
this is not the life i should live.
is insecurity that bad to where i just go back to the safe job?
i don't want to be standing ont he other side of glass, looking at the cliff, i want to be scaling that cliff.
with confidence.