seemingly seams ripping

do people don't agree with me, or do i not agree with people?

i'm tired of losing people. i seem to be extraordinarily talented at this.
i've lost my best friend, a friend whom we seem to be getting close with;
work never seems to hold true friends, it's all a game, a race to the top;
those who hold Christ so very high never seem to care about friendship with those who aren't 'perfect';
my family is on the teeter-totter of becoming a fragile china doll almost at the edge of the shelf;
and then every friend whom i hold dear, 'seems' to be far away...
college, school, east coast;
it never fails...
do friends come to haunt me? or am i holding these earthly treasures too dear to my heart?
even adam needed someone...

i can't seem to go well with people, or else people don't seem to go well with me.
i laugh when my mom explained to me how i seem to hold on and reach out for the ones who are older then me; because they are above and past all that stupid drama.
but don't forget those few, or one or two, that seem to be there when you least expect it.
then the nostalgia leaves you crying as you're trying to push it away...
it's a good thing there's one i can always count on, because he's always there.