nostalgic for disaster.

i've decided i'm dating a werewolf, as to describing all his moods. lol.
it's interesting how much i really care for this kid, because half the time he frustrates the heck out of me. lol.

i can't believe i have a boyfriend.



last night, i got a wave of nostalgia, or kinda late afternoon.
i finally took a dance class, like a real one, a ballet class. i was talking to the dance teacher, and she was saying about her senior year she quit dance and decided to be a real teenager. something i was experiencing this summer.
she's like, you should save up enough money to go to europe! have fun!
i really don't want to go to europe That bad, actually, if i ever wanted to go, it would be to paris. but not at this age.
well, right before my dance class, i was talking to uhh a friend[?] at ncsa.... i was talking to an old fairytale... [lol]
it made me want to visit ncsa again... just for the heck of it..
i did tell trina i'd try to go to her prom again; it would be fun. that's may, i think ?



i had a good talk with my mom yesterday too.
after i admitted that i had lost my credit card and get that all fixed up.... lol....
we talked about future... such a scary thing.
i'm having doubts again. like usual :\
idk if all this schooling for SOMA is really for me. i'm not a 'school' person. it doesn't work for me.
so then does that mean i should look elsewhere? i seem to not do good at finding God's signs.
though i did find one. his sign to not go back to my favorite place in the world. but after that, i seemed to fall off a cliff somewhere... cuz i can't find that path again. lol.
so i submitted a poem into a poetry contest; i went on craig's list and emailed two dance teacher ads; i have it in my mind that next week i'll have a resume ready to go around the mall again, though also with south hill mall as well as the supermall.
i'm just so tired of quizno's. i should be getting paid much more then i do. and i'm pretty sure that i am a very valuable person in his store; he'd die now, considering his other man left for sweden today for the rest of the month. lol.but i don't want to sound like the night crew or anything. we could drop them anytime. and i could be off my rocker, you never know.



lives are far too complicated.
pray.