seemingly seams ripping

do people don't agree with me, or do i not agree with people?

i'm tired of losing people. i seem to be extraordinarily talented at this.
i've lost my best friend, a friend whom we seem to be getting close with;
work never seems to hold true friends, it's all a game, a race to the top;
those who hold Christ so very high never seem to care about friendship with those who aren't 'perfect';
my family is on the teeter-totter of becoming a fragile china doll almost at the edge of the shelf;
and then every friend whom i hold dear, 'seems' to be far away...
college, school, east coast;
it never fails...
do friends come to haunt me? or am i holding these earthly treasures too dear to my heart?
even adam needed someone...

i can't seem to go well with people, or else people don't seem to go well with me.
i laugh when my mom explained to me how i seem to hold on and reach out for the ones who are older then me; because they are above and past all that stupid drama.
but don't forget those few, or one or two, that seem to be there when you least expect it.
then the nostalgia leaves you crying as you're trying to push it away...
it's a good thing there's one i can always count on, because he's always there.

..

"true love doesn't mean you won't break up, it means that you will always find your way back together."

m.e.m.o.r.i.e.s

have you ever heard a song from so long ago,
with so many memories tied to it that it made you cry?
and didn't you wish you could go back in time
to when everything was simple and carefree?
those are the songs that are the soundtracks of our lives...
the ones that bring back our past.
-best friends-
-first loves-
-broken hearts-
&&
m.e.m.o.r.i.e.s.
good and bad

warblings of an old 'once upon a time'

i am wishing upon that star tonight; that i may see you smile down at me again as i face in front of you once more
wishing upon that midnight star.. wishing most of all for you.
and i'll just sit here wishing to be within reach of you and your arms

'out of love and out of time'

i tend to stumble too quickly on love and when i fall i wonder if it's only because i'm just tripping on the broken pieces of my glass heart one too many times.

no.

stop trying to pick a fight. i'm easy to target and i'll easily fight back.
don't do this to yourself; you'll regret every "sentence" of it.

to you, it's stupid love

you as the world seem to think you can take it away
the love you hold within your hand
but i often wonder if that's really true;
because you seem to throw it away as often as a smile

you can abuse love, and you are
we all make mistakes, granted;
but you seem to repeat it,
over and over again...

let go! let go!
you're being ridiculous
all it's doing but holding on to that almost-broken rope
is causing you to get more mad
do you even know what love is?
i do not think you do..
or else you wouldn't keep all this hate within you

i feel like that love we had is losing;
all because of you cannot let go of broken love,
for the world.
please let me finish;
there is a time for it to stay
but when you refuse to let go
and see things through the broken mirror,
you're hurting yourself more then others
but still hurting them just as bad..

let go! let go!
and understand that broken heart will still be there,
but your anger needs to leave, as you are destroying the world around you.

{old poem}

i want to fight you for all i can
yet i'd surrender in a minute

i'm not a coward;
i'll fight for what is right
but when i'm fighting my own war with myself,
it's hard to win that fight

my mind says don't give in
to your venomous love
but my heart is saying to suck it in
become a little drunk

bang the doldrums [fall out boy]

I wrote a goodbye note in lipstick on your arm
When you passed out
I couldn't bring myself to call
Except to call it quits

Best friends
Ex-friends till the end
Better off as lovers
And not the other way around
Racing through the city
Windows down
In the back of yellow checkered cars

You're wrong
Are we all wrong
You're wrong
Are we all wrong

This city says...

Come hell or high water
Well I'm feeling hot and wet
I can't commit to a thing
Be it heart or hospital

Best friends
Ex-friends till the end
Better off as lovers
And not the other way around
Racing through the city
Windows down
In the back of yellow checkered cars

You're wrong
Are we all wrong
You're wrong
Are we all wrong

The tombstones were waiting
They were half-engraved
They knew it was over
Just didn't know the date

And I cast a spell over the west to make you think of me
The same way I think of you
This is a love song in my own way
Happily ever after below the waist

Best friends
Ex-friends till the end
Better off as lovers

Racing through the city
Windows down
In the back of yellow checkered cars

You're wrong
Are we all wrong
You're wrong
Are we all wrong

Best friends (You're wrong)
Ex-friends till the end
Better off as lovers (You're wrong)
And not the other way around
Ex-friends till the end (You're wrong)
Better off as lovers (You're wrong)

down [jay sean]

Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, down,
Even if the sky is falling down,
Down, down
Ooh (ohhh)

You oughta know, tonight is the night to let it go,
Put on a show, i wanna see how you lose control,

So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape.

So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down,

Just let it be, come on and bring your body next to me,
I’ll take you away, hey, turn this place into our private getaway,

So leave it behind ’cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape,

(So why don’t we run away)

So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down,

Even if the sky is falling down like she supposed to be,
She gets down low for me,
Down like her temperature, ’cause to me she zero degree,
She cold, overfreeze,
I got that girl from overseas,
Now she my miss America,
now can i be her soldier please,
I’m fighting for this girl,
I’m a battlefield of love,
Don’t it look like baby cupid sent his arrows from above,
Don’t you ever leave the side of me,
Indefinitely, not probably,
and honestly im down like the economy,
Yeahhhhhh

So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down

No. Try not. Do... or do not. There is no try.

sometimes, i feel like i'm on the dark side of the force. i have so much anger.
fear? i don't know. i think i live in ignorance of fear.
is that good or bad?

but yet i have good in me too.
luke skywalker could see that in darth vader.

and look what darth vader did. he brought peace to the galaxy.

so can i be both? i'm a peace bringer.
i have good, i follow the path of light.
i just have anger. but anger can be overcome.

adventures...

the crazy adventures of moon willow and thunder horse.

"UNTIL ONE HAS LOVED AN ANIMAL, PART OF THEIR SOUL REMAINS UNAWAKENED"

truth be told,

you never know how much you love someone, or how much you care for someone, until they're "gone".

truthfully, i didn't think i'd cry.


the night goes on slow, as whispers of memories flow in the wind, and the eyes are sparkling brighter then usual..

tongue tied [faber drive]

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

work. baha

the look of hate read into their eyes, they are the lions; now into the den is where i step, leaving my fear behind. God shall save me.

sunday school :]

'but i trust in the your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.' psalm 13:5

'you turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy.' psalm 30:11

your sorry does not fit your apology

sor⋅ry
  /ˈsɒri, ˈsɔri/ [sor-ee, sawr-ee]
–adjective, -ri⋅er, -ri⋅est.
1. feeling regret, compunction, sympathy, pity, etc.: to be sorry to leave one's friends; to be sorry for a remark; to be sorry for someone in trouble.
2. regrettable or deplorable; unfortunate; tragic: a sorry situation; to come to a sorry end.
3. sorrowful, grieved, or sad: Was she sorry when her brother died?
4. associated with sorrow; suggestive of grief or suffering; melancholy; dismal.
5. wretched, poor, useless, or pitiful: a sorry horse.
6. (used interjectionally as a conventional apology or expression of regret): Sorry, you're misinformed. Did I bump you? Sorry.

bryn's new word hehehe

a freudian slip, or parapraxis, is an error in speech, memory, or physical action that is interpreted as occurring due to the interference of some unconscious ('dynamically repressed') wish, conflict, or train of thought

your quote

"somewhere between all our laughs, long talks, stupid little fights, and all our jokes, i fell in love."

the way to a girl's heart

a way to a girl's heart is to buy her roses and chocolate.
and can i say, yes, yes that is true.

i got roses for the second time within four days, as well as chocolate.
that made my night; i had a rather bad day.
i can't stop smiling.

you never realize how much you appreciate someone until you realize they were thinking of you.
and then you wonder why, sometimes, you doubt them. jeez.

:D

someody to love [queen]

Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

I work hard every day of my life
I work till I ache my bones
At the end I take home my hard earned pay all on my own -
I get down on my knees
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord - somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me - somebody to love?

(He works hard)

Everyday - I try and I try and I try -
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe
Yeah - yeah yeah yeah

Oh Lord
Somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I'm ok, I'm alright
Ain't gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!

Find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

One night I had a dream--
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord
and across the sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints,
one belonged to me and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that many times along the path of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times in my life.
This really bothered me and I questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you would walk with me all the way,
but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life
there is only one set of footprints.
"I don't understand why in times when I needed you most,
you should leave me."
The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and I would never, never leave you
during your times of trial and suffering.
"When you saw only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you.

respect?

i guess "respect" is viewed differently to everyone.

my dad blew up at me today... guess i wasn't being respectful towards him.
he was napping with my mom, and my brother and i were out in the other room talking and listening to music. we weren't being loud, or at least i didn't think so, and all of a sudden my dad pops his head out his bedroom door and goes "SHHHHH" really loud.
scared me more then anything; but i brushed it off and was like okay..

when he got up from his nap, he commented on it, and i kinda scorned it a bit, but nothing out of the ordinary. he looked at me and scorned me back, so i thought we were kinda good.
well then my mom and i were still teasing him a little later, more just mostly me onyl because my mom didn't hear us at all, and he blew up on me. told me i need to respect him a lot more and such.
i broke down; i really didn't think i did anything that wrong. i am not the best daughter sometimes, but i didn't think i did anything that wrong then. my mom didn't think so either.

well later my dad called to check up on us; he works later now, and was still mad!!!!! this was before 1!! it's like 7.30 now :(
and he's irritated that my mom took my side and didn't say anything to me.

respect.

magic?

i sit and watch the world outside
watch the butterflies passing by
listening to the music in my head,
pretending this movie will have a happy end

blinking in and out of days
trying to figure out this maze
of life, of love, of mysteries
makes you wonder what is history


the wind whispers softly,
of memories long ago
the skies sing of stories,
of lovers; high and lo
of servants, eager to please
those stories which would bring you to your knees

never give up;
and never let them see you cry
always pretend that you are tough
even if you feel like you should die


there's magic everywhere...

wild at heart [gloriana]

Down a back road
Long, hot summer
A couple kids runnin' loose and wild
He kissed her
She said mister,
Take an inch and I'll give you a mile

I ain't here to do anything half-way
Don't give a damn what anyone might say
I just wanna free fall for a while

That rebel moon is shinin'
Those stars burn like diamonds
Hell bent on chasin' down that crazy slide
I'll follow you where you're leading
To the first sweet taste of freedom
You got me runnin' baby,
Wild at heart

About midnight, he tells her
I ain't got no come-on lines
Well I'll love you, or I'll try to
We got nothing to lose but time

Stick your hand into my back pocket
Light me up like a bottle rocket
I just wanna free fall for a while

That rebel moon is shinin'
Those stars burn like diamonds
Hell bent on chasin' down that crazy slide
I'll follow you where you're leadin'
To the first sweet taste of freedom
You got me runnin' baby,
Wild at heart

O-oh, alright
Tonight is tellin' us we're way too young

O-oh, that's alright
I've forever on the tip of my tongue

That rebel moon is shinin'
Those stars burn like diamonds
Hell bent on chasin' down that crazy slide
I'll follow you where you're leading
To the first sweet taste of freedom
You got me runnin' baby,
Wild at heart

That rebel moon is shinin'
Those stars burn like diamonds
Hell bent on chasin' down that crazy slide
I'll follow you where you're leading
To the first sweet taste of freedom
You got me runnin' baby,
You got me runnin' baby,
Wild at heart

O-oh, alright...

i believe in love.

sometimes i wonder if i know what love really is.
i believe in love. i believe there are many kinds of love.

i believe that there is a child's love, and there is a passionate love.
i believe there is the kind we are always searching for, maybe we find it, maybe we don't.
i believe that true love never leaves us, no matter how hard we try to throw it away. maybe we put it on a shelf for "safe keeping", or perhaps to forget about it.
but why would you want to forget it? wasn't it, at one point in time, the best thing that ever happened to you? that's what love is, isn't it?

love is so many things. it's those indescribable moments. those times you looked at them, and couldn't see anything else. all those songs you had every bit memorized, and still cry when you hear them.
it's those moments where you could just sit in silence, and it was those memories you held onto before you dreamt at night. it was where those laughing wrinkles come from. it was when you heart broke so hard from what you thought was 'perfect'.
it's the smell of roses. those long phone calls. those letters you both sent back and forth.

love is bigger then the heart is.
when one loves, they love forever. that real love. that true love. the love that one keeps in their pocket, perhaps to once look at every so often, or everyday. every year at one time, or never again. but it's there.

you may hate it now. wish it never had happened, you're hurting so bad. but really now. could you really hate something that you loved at one time?

there is time for laughter, there is time for screams. there is time for sorrow, there is time for dreams. there is time for broken hearts, and time for healing. but there is never not time for love.


i believe. i believe in a thing called love.

far away [nickelback]

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
Cause you know,
you know, you know


So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long

So keep breathing
Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

ramblings of music {thoughts}.

i'm tired. sad isn't it?
i worked so hard.

must i talk in puzzles? yes, yes you may.

rants and raves, tears and smiles

music is my refuge, as dreams come to haunt me


you are my day;
and you are my night.
you are the left;
and you are the right.
you are there, the daylight;
you are in the folds between "wakefullness" and sleep
the dreams...

a long car rides and long nights, time to think and time to dream; sometimes one's love is bigger then their heart can manage.

if you only knew [shinedown]

If you only knew
I'm hanging by a thread
The web I spin for you
If you only knew
I'd sacrifice my beating
Heart before I lose you
I still hold onto the letters
You returned
I swear I've lived and learned

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew

If you only knew
How many times I counted
All the words that went wrong
If you only knew
How I refuse to let you go,
Even when you're gone
I don't regret any days I
Spent, nights we shared,
Or letters that I sent

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew

If you only knew
I still hold onto the letters
You returned
You help me live and learn

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, believe in is you
I still believe in you
Oh, if you only knew

i am a cheater.

i am at my family reunion right now, of my dad's mom's side.
JOHNSON'S FAMILY REUNION/

i met the cutest little boy named carlisle, who is two.
and i have cheated, gone to the dark side, and fallen in love with the chubby-cheeked, shy kid who had taken me on as his girl. :D
i couldn't resist!

haha.
halloo from cheney/

love drunk [boys like girls]

The top down in the summer sun
The day we met was like a hit an run
An I still taste it on my tongue
The sky was burning up like fireworks
You made me want you oh so bad it hurt
But girl, in case you haven’t heard

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one thing would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

Hot sweat and blurry eyes
We’re spinning on a roller coaster ride
The world stuck in black and white
You drove me crazy every time we touched
But now I’m so broken that I can’t get up
Oh girl, you make me such a lush

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now its just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one thing would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
Checking into rehab is everything that we had
Didn’t mean a thing to you

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
I’ll love you forever
Forever is over
We used to kiss all night
Now it’s just a bar fight
So don’t call me crying
Say hello to goodbye

Cause Just one thing would make me say
I used to be love drunk
But now I’m hungover
Ill love you forever
But now it’s over

Now it’s over
I still taste it on my tongue

gahh

“We dance for laughter, we dance for tears, we dance for madness, we dance for fears, we dance for hopes, we dance for screams, we are the dancers, we create the dreams.”

i'm so pissed off right now i don't even know what to say.
you say one thing, but mean another.
do friendships even mean a thing to you?

disney, please.

i'm so tired of work.
i might be called in today, so i woke up early for it.....
i think i will be called in, and i don't want to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






hehehehehe..
i'm getting back into my pin trading again :D
disney forever!!!!

:D

i miss disneyland; someone take me there please?



i have writer's block; more later.

nostalgic for disaster.

i've decided i'm dating a werewolf, as to describing all his moods. lol.
it's interesting how much i really care for this kid, because half the time he frustrates the heck out of me. lol.

i can't believe i have a boyfriend.



last night, i got a wave of nostalgia, or kinda late afternoon.
i finally took a dance class, like a real one, a ballet class. i was talking to the dance teacher, and she was saying about her senior year she quit dance and decided to be a real teenager. something i was experiencing this summer.
she's like, you should save up enough money to go to europe! have fun!
i really don't want to go to europe That bad, actually, if i ever wanted to go, it would be to paris. but not at this age.
well, right before my dance class, i was talking to uhh a friend[?] at ncsa.... i was talking to an old fairytale... [lol]
it made me want to visit ncsa again... just for the heck of it..
i did tell trina i'd try to go to her prom again; it would be fun. that's may, i think ?



i had a good talk with my mom yesterday too.
after i admitted that i had lost my credit card and get that all fixed up.... lol....
we talked about future... such a scary thing.
i'm having doubts again. like usual :\
idk if all this schooling for SOMA is really for me. i'm not a 'school' person. it doesn't work for me.
so then does that mean i should look elsewhere? i seem to not do good at finding God's signs.
though i did find one. his sign to not go back to my favorite place in the world. but after that, i seemed to fall off a cliff somewhere... cuz i can't find that path again. lol.
so i submitted a poem into a poetry contest; i went on craig's list and emailed two dance teacher ads; i have it in my mind that next week i'll have a resume ready to go around the mall again, though also with south hill mall as well as the supermall.
i'm just so tired of quizno's. i should be getting paid much more then i do. and i'm pretty sure that i am a very valuable person in his store; he'd die now, considering his other man left for sweden today for the rest of the month. lol.but i don't want to sound like the night crew or anything. we could drop them anytime. and i could be off my rocker, you never know.



lives are far too complicated.
pray.

ughh

today was not my day. end of story.

you, and only you.

i miss you, last night;
we didn't speak, we didn't talk
invisible within the little town,

i suppose it is better, we can't see each other every waking minute,
we have lives, you and i,
and to live them completely together could destroy the very fragile foundations.
i love you too much to break you in half.

but i miss you, and i hope you are alright.
i love you.

<3

love runs down
in tear-like form
the redness of the heart
oozes out of anguish
helpless on my knees,
i wish i could hold you,
your problems,
your love


i cry out for your survival
to give you strength; i must become weak
for you i would, forever so to speak

my tears are real, my tears are yours
mixed with the red love it pours


the stars can vanish, or else collide
but nothing in my heart can i hide

dramatic exposure is raining down
it tries to kill us, make us drown

i cannot take away your pain
instead your love, i try to gain


i cry for you, for your forgiveness, for your hurt
because i love you, whether or not you're broken inside
even if you feel like you're worse then dirt
i won't let you go, i won't let you hide




i'm crying for you guys, but i love you.
pray.

haha i have too much fun

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions.
Pass it on to at least 15 people and include me.
You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think!
Re-post as "my life according to (band name)"

Pick Your Artist: bowling for soup

Are you male or female?
"girl all the bad guys want"

Describe Yourself:
"summer of 69"

How do you feel:
"highschool never ends"

Describe where you currently live:
"my hometime"

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
"the last rock show"

Your favorite form of transportation:
"melt with you"

Your best friend is:
"friends like you"

What is life to you:
"1985"

Your fear:
"almost"

What is the best advice you have to give:
"shut up and smile"

How I would like to die:
"bare necessities"

My Motto:
"trucker hat"

peace signs = BAD

never again will i wear a peace sign.
it represents a cross being broken and held upside down.
awful :( and they say it's the peace sign!!
makes sense considering in the 60's..... how many people were actually christians during that whole movement?

and thus true love's first kiss.... hahaha.

all i can say is




:D

because that's what i'm feeling. such a lovely night.

i'm upon your shooting star; and whizzing by with enough speed to provide happiness

drama.

dra⋅ma
  /ˈdrɑmə, ˈdræmə/ [drah-muh, dram-uh]
–noun
1. a composition in prose or verse presenting in dialogue or pantomime a story involving conflict or contrast of character, esp. one intended to be acted on the stage; a play.
2. the branch of literature having such compositions as its subject; dramatic art or representation.
3. the art dealing with the writing and production of plays.
4. any situation or series of events having vivid, emotional, conflicting, or striking interest or results: the drama of a murder trial.
5. the quality of being dramatic.

drama is not something that is a fun thing.
they say high school is the worst time for drama. that is when it is hit at its max.
is it because high school is drama? or is it the age?


it's unfair to be caught in the web of drama, with the immaturity of it spinning around you.

work seems to be drama.
church seems to be drama.
life is drama, i guess. lol.

when one is weary of drama, and when drama is the sword against you in the fight, life is hard.
how is one supposed to fight back when it is coming around all around you?



one thing we seem to forgot often is that God is with us, within the drama, shielding us from the worst. even though the worst seems to be upon us, i'm pretty sure the worst is having the drama down in hell, so.... God saved/is saving us from that.
it is very hard to remember to talk to God when he's not down with us physically. we can't see him. who wants to talk to an invisible person? we can't get a hug, nor a reassurance talk.
we mostly forget that it shouldn't matter, that That is what our faith is all about, or "pact" with Jesus in our hearts is. we accepted Jesus into our hearts; we accepted the fact we are not going to see him until we get up into heaven.
he's still there for us.

drama may try to attack us, and may look like it's on the winning end of the battle,
but we need to look up to the skies, and remember, we can endure, because we have God on our side.

remember...

when the waves are repeatedly crashing down all around you,
look up and remember you're safe.

when life turned to hell, and the brimstone is eating at you,
look up and remember someone out there actually does love you.

when jealousy is covering up your happiness,
remember someone knows you'll get over it.

when drama is swallowing into its web,
remember to look for that light on the edge of the tunnel.

honesty award goes to... becki :]

the rules:
***post 10 honest facts about yourself


1) i'm a dancer inside and out, except i have never fit in with dancers nor have i been the bitch/snot personality of one.

2) um i went to college at age 16. and absolutely loved every minute of it.

3) i've dyed my hair hot pink, purple, light pink, green, and red.

4) i work at quizno's and hate it a lot.

5) i've got this thing somewhere that makes me want to always 'help' somebody. it's like an addiction.

6) i complain too much and i also gossip more then i think i am. when someone asks how is life, i tend to draw out all the negatives

7) i really have nothing i'm really "scared" of, except for drowning. but i try to remember if i do, i get to go to heaven, so...

8) i want to go on a roadtrip with a bunch of friends, when i'm like 21 or so.

9) i'm really starting to doubt my church. a lot. there's too much drama from every side of it.

10) i really would love to get married in disney land :]

three days in; summer reigns on

you know what? i'm getting tired of those people sounding mad at you when they just don't want to talk about whatever you are trying to talk to them about. do they say they don't want to talk about it? no.
that's bullshit.


just got back from the lake. lake st. claire, at gram pam's.
it was fabulous; though i think one night and two days is enough. lol.
three days and two nights was stretching it.

"two years he walks the earth no phone no pool no pets no cigarettes ultimate freedom an extremist an aesthetic voyager whose home is the road" - roger miller

i have a flipping boyfriend. haha.
but my gossip is not going onto here, because it's something i'd like to keep in my smiling memories. haha.
never had a boy call himself a bastard for me though.
and the 'basically committed suicide.' that is a big thing to say.




joan jett; her shag of a hair, a bit too dramatic, but the original style icon.

taylor momsen, on the other hand, is my new favorite style icon.