to you,

if one can hide and deny feelings for three years, why can't they do it all over again?
just because you didn't get your happy ever after, doesn't mean it's the end of the world. doesn't mean you have the right to be depressed the rest of your life.
move on with it, or else you're going to lose friends. your bridges will burn.
life is fragile, true friendship is rare/
if you'd like to fuel the fire coming out of your mouth then by all means continue.
you're doing it entirely by will, you know. putting yourself in situations that comes back to you and you don't know how to handle it. you put yourself in that place anyway, and you know it. so figure it out.
get out of the mopey, feeling sorry for yourself phase, because you're acting like someone else you know all too well. and you didn't like it when that happened, did you?

sure, one can dream and hope and pray, but if it isn't what supposed to happen, then figure out how to live without it.
you wrote the letter, you never sent it. you know the truth, but you're scared of saying anything.
that's on you, not them. so don't take it out on them either.

live life as you lived before. you were happy, free, right?
you'll have that what if... following you for a long time. it's gonna haunt you. but what's done is done, and you can't erase that. so get out of the blues and be happy again.
don't sacrifice the friendship for your own selfish desires.
you can pray. pray for deliverance thru this. for patience, possibly, and for strength.
you can do this. you've been able to do this the last three years or so.
so why would it be any harder now? they don't know all of it. but they might if you keep setting yourself up for it.

turn off the burner, and melt back.
be happy. find your joys.