thursday. how perfectly boring.

well. i would say yesterday was not my day.
i got so stressed over a few things that when a cop pulled me over i lost it.
break light out and expired tabs. all ten minutes before work.
just a warning!!
yeah and work is a happy atmosphere with cute adorable attention-wandering kids. that was fun trying to get myself back into that.
the haven happened to be the breece's/ i love becki and rose so much they just let me sit in their house until i had to go pick up my brother. i guess being lonely without a mom to talk to has its toll. nice to have friends with open arms.
even if i feel completely stupid about me falling apart on the account.

later; i was able to buy myself the tabs, and then even the light i needed AND got it IN THE CAR AND WORKING! i felt like such a mechanic hahahaha
[i was determined to go to a bible study that night]

interesting how we build friendships up, tear them down eat them up, wash them away, and rebuild the cycle all over again.
idk also funny how when people also say certain things about the person/people, as everyone laughs about it and you can hide so easily behind such statements. but feel so differently.
gahhh
i just hope this friendship didn't get murdered yesterday. if i was a better actor, perhaps it could have been alright. but no. i just fuck it up. prayers, that i didn't just burn down the bridge of this friendship.

community study last night was wonderful. it got everything off my mind for the three hours i was there. and it helped. now it would be good if i actually remembered to read the whole book of philipians this week... haha and do the homework!


well there's sun today, which i am excited about. that is a good start of a happy thing.
idk how i feel or what will happen, what to do or how to preserve. but i'm going to go into this war battling and saving as hard as i can, because i'm not willing to let it destroy what i have worked so hard to keep together.