hallelujah.

you know, i'd almost ask to go to the land where unicorns are real, and all the greek mythology creatures come to life.
but then God wouldn't be with us, and i cannot accept that.
God is amazing. He truly is.

saturday nights alright for fighting!

how amazing is it that when you ask for a miracle and God gives it to you. and he did. overnight.
then i felt like the service tonight was screaming my name haha

hung out with rose red all day!!!! great day. think i'm sunburnt a bit.. lol but we had fun i'd like to think!!


its great to walk about feeling almost confident again. almost.

well; how glorious God is and i love Him.

i'm holding on to naught but frustration
hearing it scream within my hands
the worst part is; i don't know what to do
except turn back time, something i do not know how

how foolish are we when our emotions overtake us
how embarrassed we become, and then the tears fall
it affects our moods,
and we see life as nothing

because all that ever matters is what happened then

i'm wishing and hoping somewhere you'll understand
though thru puzzles and rhymes i hide my face
cowardice?

zig-zag patterns

can you feel the wind and rain beat up against your back,
the thunder clapping in remorse
and the lightening showing up what you lack

feel the wind whispering your disappointments
wandering rivers flowing down
when will wisdom soon be found?

fractured words, broken silences

zig-zag patterns...

bahhhhhhh can i fuck it up anymore?

God is giving us summer!

wow. so yesterday i hung out with lizzy, dennis, kirstie, and friends. we were at salt water state park, and were there for a while.. then we went up to the pier itself, and then dennis proposed to lizzy.
so amazing to watch!!!!! she started crying.
so did kirstie and i... lol
such beautiful thing to see.


kirstie's going to france next week!!!!!!!!!! so excited for her!


bible study was last night too. greg was in oregon, so jeffrey and tobin lead it. pretty good. i just somehow didn't have any of the questions... don't know how i missed them lol

pretty fun. just wish i could speak the uh, "chinese" language hahahaha oh well. you can't speak my language either,
i really don't know if i'm totally acting up or not. give me patience, oh Lord, because i don't know what else to ask for.


going to pierce today to see what i can do for myself at the moment. we'll see!

tough shit.

i waited all day to have a breakdown.
wow. at least i tried to give it to Christ.