nine-nine-nine

excitement is rather dull.
haha no it's just disappointing sometimes bahaha

doesn't help when you have dreams of such.


my back hurts and idk why :( i go to work today and it's going to be loooooooong day.

[later]
well. survived work; and then went on an epic adventure with zach :D
we sent kelsey a present; we barely made it in time for the post office because zach decides he forgets his letter at home, and we had to drive to his house to grab it, as he's telling me the whole time it won't fit... [hehehe]
so we get it all in there, and barely make it to the post office by 5:00pm.
{everyone should know, zach drives like a MANIAC! i all but got carsick with him lol}
we sent it!!!! after a bitchy lady let us.. lol.

can't wait to hear when she gets it :D



"i smile a lot, but when it's random i'm thinking of him"

love?

friends come, and friends go,
but love never seems to leave, you know.

and then that song made you think of me :]

goodbye...

there is a time for laughter, a time for tears; a time for smiles, a time for fears; a time for joy, a time to say "hi", but now is really a time to say goodbye.

what to say...

it's sunday morn,
and i do not know where to go
it's a morning after a fight
and i'm still mad
it's the day after some major thinking
and i still don't know what to do
it's nine hours after a riddle was told to me
and i still haven't figured it out



1] i'm losing you, i'm losing us, you're so confused about trivial stuff; learn to grow up sir.

2] how dare you say that, and not explain! i cannot ask more, or else feel doomed to thy persecution. oh how dare love by thy torment!

3]mysteries are said; and days are numbered... why and if and how and no.

4] there is no words, for anything else i have to say.

friendship? i don't think you know what that is.

friend⋅ship
  /ˈfrɛndʃɪp/ [frend-ship]
–noun
1. the state of being a friend; association as friends: to value a person's friendship.
2. a friendly relation or intimacy.
3. friendly feeling or disposition.

to be, or not to be, THAT is the question.

so i'm supposed to find my passion.
and think.
i was told yesterday how my mother was disappointed in me, but really, she didn't mean it like that at all. she just told me what she saw with me throughout my dancing years.

she told me i could go back; if i look through it all, find my passion, apply myself, and figure out what i could get out of it besides a 80,000$ + debt.

a chance to go back...
wow.
and i definitely couldn't base it on friends haha cuz the ones i love will all be leaving this year. stupid college seniors and high school seniors.
haha.
which is a good thing, really, it helps me.


wow.