help me understand?

ramblings of a lonely being

it's kinda funny how no matter how hard i wish i know it'll never happen.
it's a good thing, i don't need to get any more attached then i already am.
but you'd be surprised how much that one little note means to me.
call it the world. a whole new world.
be my aladdin, and i'll be your jasmine?

life is the never-ending path

down our path of life there are always choices,
the forks on the path;
a single choice can take us one way down the road, this way or that way
the question is, are we on the right path?
each decision takes u right down or left
the path shows and gives us the wrong turns to learn from,
the people we're meet who end up changing our lives,
the experiences which make us stronger
the wrong turns keep us going to catch up to the "right ones"
but they are there for us to completely know nothing of life,
because would you really want the boring life where nothing interesting came along or any adventures arrived?
our questions keep us thriving, to keep going on to find those answers
the path is designed specifically for you
but what people don't understand is that you mark the path.
there is no one forcing you to go one way or another. all you. only you.
so will you take the chance?
start walking. see where it goes.

smile.

love how the simplest things can make your day!

so sweet,

how is that sometimes you actually still find a way to make me cry?
i found your note the other day... the one thing you actually gave me as something of yours. i had to actually listen to our song the other da. first time since april.
and the fact i'm still part of your life... just brought me to tears.


you have no idea how much it means to me about the fact that we are still friends. we did not part ways and be done with it. we are still strong. you're one of my best friends. i can say i love you and mean so many things.

God gave me you for a little bit for something.

"i quit. i'm over you. i fell so hard. i was always there when you needed someone to talk to. yeah, so basically i'm tired of being just a friend or chasing you. so if you want me, i'm here, but i'm done wasting all my time on someone who doesn't care."

God is so good!

this summer i have:
a. jumped off a cliff into a river
b. slept under the stars
c. took a friend to my grandma's lake [finally]
d. went camping with 14 kids, aka my wonderful bible study!
e. found an intact sanddollar at the ocean
f. learned to realize again and again, that boys won't give you what you want. they're insufficient and play and toy with your feelings.
g. joined a bible study.
h. gotten so much closer to God
i. started to read my bible a lot more now
j. asked for things and received things back from God.
k. made new wonderful God-fearing friends
l. found out God has a very interesting sense of humor...
m. started to dance again; remembered the passion i have had.