you can tell i'm that bored.

1. What was the highlight of your week?
seeing meghan three times :] and red robin.

2. Whose car were you in last?
rose's

3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
ha. i almost wish i could predict that.

4. What color shirt are you wearing?
blue! with ncsa 08 summer intensive on it

5. How long is your hair?
almost to my armpits [long for me]

6. Are you good looking?
ha. not really.

7. Last movie you watched?
the african queen!!!!! <3 humphrey bogart!

8. Who were you with?
family

9. Last thing you ate?
drinking a smoothie and had coffee

10. Last thing you drank?
oh. drinking smoothie and HAD coffee/

11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
oh dear. can one break it themselves? april of 09

12. Who came over last?
meghan!

13. Are you happy right now?
i seek to be joyful, but yes, i am happy it's christmas season, as well as God is giving me so much!!

14. What did you say last?
i was telling my mother about how the natural jiffy peanut butter tastes different then the normal jiffy peanut butter.

15. Where is your phone?
in front of me

16. What color are your eyes?
mud brown.

17. Are you left-handed?
nope.

18. Spell your name without vowels:
brn.... i'm going to count Y as a vowel?

19. Do you have any pets?
lol. four yorkies, one lab, [one yorkie has 6 puppies at the moments], nine birds, and then a cat that lives outdoors

20. Favorite Vacation?
disneyland. duh[:

21. What do you dislike currently?
that my feet are cold?

22. What are you listening to?
my birds next to me... or i just listened to 'a merry swiftmas' my evan taubenfeld.

23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
is that a heart's desire? that'd be my secret hahaha
idk.

24. What is your favorite scent?
that's really hard.

25. Who makes you happy?
connecting with my friends... so meghan. the most i think.. devin..

26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
reading a jodi picoult book - house rules [about a kid with asperger's syndrome who is arrested for murder]

27. When is your birthday?
november 19

28. Who has the same phone as you?
haven't seen anyone with it.

29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
ha. summertime.

30. Do you read your horoscope?
i read when i get my magazines.. but not much else

31. Where was the last place you bought something?
target!

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
i would like it to be a little longer but i like the color right now haha

33. Do you bite your nails?
yeah :/

34. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
yes actually, my first boyfriend gave me a necklace i've seen the price on... another necklace from my rents and an earring from a pair of diamonds.

35. Do you wear any expensive jewelery?
yes. i sometimes wear all three at once.

36. Myspace or facebook?
facebook. used to have myspace.

37. How fast have you driven a car?
lol. 85? 90?

38. Have you ever smoked?
lol...

39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
english. i loved writing.

40. Do you have Verizon?
nope. t-mobile.

41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
oh jeez. well idk... i guess so far it hasn't been anyone christian and every one of them my mom has not liked. but all had different personalities... oh. but they all were needy.

42. Do you have any hidden talents?
hidden ;D well i started therapy school once so i can actually touch your body and feel all you knots, torture you and actually make you feel better within a week.
no idea...

43. Last song you listened to?
a merry swiftness by evan taubenfeld!

44. Do you like to sing at all?
haha. yes.

45. Dream Job?
dance company, then teach dance, with SOMA [therapy]

46. Where does most of your family live?
around washington.

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
two younger brothers

48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
lol. in some ways, yes.

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
ahh!!! they're playing that one song! [a merry swiftness]

50. Do you drink?
lol..

51. Know any other languages?
i can say very minimal in french and spanish. VERY minimal

52. Ever write a coded message?
that's the fun in being friends with people

53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
no.

54. Do you have any children?
HELL no.

55. Did you take a nap today?
i woke up half an hour ago.

56. Who has the same birthday as you?
tazshia!!!! and josh.

57. Ever met anyone famous before?
yeah. ethan steifel. [dance]

58. Do you want to be famous one day?
only within my friends and family.

59. Any Pet Peeves?
people hitting [drumming] loudly while we're all listening to music... i seem to be more and more OCD lately...

60. Are you multitasking right now?
guess i am.. smoothie, texting my dad, and doing this, listening to music... i wasn't really thinking about it haha

61. Do you like Britany Spears?
her songs, yes. her, no.

62. What is your least favorite chore?
dishwasher. lol

63. Last place you drove your car?
to red robin's to celebrate meghan's birthday, and she put me in there too.

64. Ever been out of the country?
no.

65. Where were you born?
tacoma, washington.

66. Could you handle being in the military?
probably not..

67. What is your average cell phone bill?
lol. i average for 30$ with it being unlimited texting lol

68. Who are you thinking about right now?
lol. wasn't until you asked.

69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
really really hard? when my dad kept spilling his lemon tart all over the place.

70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
does this count dance shoes too? lol jk um eleven without counting the five more dance pairs of shoes.

71. Are your toes always painted?
no. dance makes them just come off.

72. How many piercings do you have?
six, the seventh is gone now and though i have the fifth one kind of closing up.

73. What are you doing today?
i am going to try and make myself take a at-home ballet class and then work tonight.

74. Have you ever been gambling?
nope. only in chips.

75. When is the last time you updated your page?
the other day. i edited my school :D

76. Do you like rollercoasters?
oh yes.

77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
DISNEYLAND! only about eight or nine times. not enough.

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
hmm... something from disney i like belle form beauty and the beast... aurora and prince phillip from sleeping beauty.. tarzan is a fave.. too hard to narrow straight down.

79. Last thing you cooked?
ha. i don't... but a scrambled egg in the microwave lol

80. Hows the weather?
chilly and the snow is all but gone.

81. Do you e-mail?
i do, actually.

82. Whats the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
left it in the pocket and it was in the wash for ten minutes.

83. Last time you were sick?
really trying to get over the cold that's got its fingers on me now.

84. What states have you lived in?
washington. do you count college? then north carolina.

85. Do you wish you could move?
i would rather not be in washington later on in life.

86. Do you take all the QuizPox.com quizzes?
no.

87. What is your dream car?
don't think i'll be getting the 69 bug i want.... so a jetta or something.

88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
ol. OH yes.

89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
right this minute? disneyland or north carolina.

90. Are you happy with your life?
i truly can say i am.

die?

why? why can you not die?
though i try to hurt you, it's like an invisible wall bars you inside
i cannot pierce it, sobbing as i may
do you understand how much you're killing me?

the months keep going,
and the clock still ticks
though time keeps slowing down and speeding up
making me forget my outer shell

my hopes and dreams, they're still surrounding me
trying to pester me back to reality
but honestly, half of them are with you...

why? why can you not die?
though i try to hurt you, it's like an invisible wall bars you inside
i cannot pierce it, sobbing as i may
do you understand how much you're killing me?

crumbling, the red shape inside of myself slowly blows away
the wind so passionate, making me pay
what did i do wrong, when i looked into your eyes,
what curse was put upon me?

what did i do,
what did i do,
what curse was put upon me?

i cannot forget
i cannot seem to die completely
no rest in peace
where is my salvation....

i cannot make you die, then leave me.. alone.. from this place..
for to continue to love you, only leaves me with heartbreak.

ALMOST 10 INCHES OF SNOW!

i'm dying my hair fire red as we speak.

ramble ramble ramble

i'd give you an answer, but often you don't like them.
i can dream all i want, doesn't matter if they come true or not.
i'm tired of the what ifs, and the knowing it won't happen.
love is such a tiresome thing.
what is love?
and what becomes of your heart, when all you think of is shallow things, boy?
i wish i could hold you, and let you be happy, but it sacrifices everything i believe in.
at the same time, i'm actually content.
for once in my life.
and i want to push you away, far far away, but everytime i get so close to this, i pull right back and hold you from here.
i wish you knew God.
so i'll stand from here, and pray for you.

long live - taylor swift

i still remember this moment
In the back of my mind
The time we stood with our shaking hands
The crowds in stands went wild
We were the kings and the queens
And they read off our names
The night you danced like you knew our lives
Would never be the same
You held your head like a hero
On a history book page
It was the end of a decade
But the start of an age

Long live the walls we crashed through
All the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming, "long live all the magic we made"
And bring on all the pretenders
One day we will be remembered

I said remember this feeling
I passed the pictures around
Of all the years that we stood there on the sidelines
Wishing for right now
We are the kings and the queens
You traded your baseball cap for a crown
When they gave us our trophies
And we held them up for our town
And the cynics were outraged
Screaming, "this is absurd"
'Cause for a moment a band of thieves in ripped up jeans got to rule the world

Long live the walls we crashed through
All the kingdom lights shined just for me and you
I was screaming, "long live all the magic we made"
And bring on all the pretenders
I'm not afraid

Long live all the mountains we moved

I had the time of my life
Fighting dragons with you
I was screaming, "long live the look on your face"
And bring on all the pretenders
One day we will be remembered

Hold on to spinning around
Confetti falls to the ground
May these memories break

And you take a moment
Promise me this:
That you'll stand by me forever
But if God forbid fate should step in
And force us into a goodbye
If you have children someday
When they point to the pictures
Please tell them my name
Tell them how the crowds went wild
Tell them how I hope they shine

Long live the walls we crashed through
I had the time of my life with you

Long, long live the walls we crashed through
All the candlelight shined just for me and you
And I was screaming, "long live all the magic we made"
And bring on all the pretenders
I'm not afraid

Singing long live all the mountains we moved
I had the time of my life
Fighting dragons with you

And long, long live the look on your face
And bring on all the pretenders
One day we will be remembered

paint.

the world is a canvas of brightly colors, fading away as the rain washes it down the drain
"you want me to paint?"
so i did... the only way i know how
the canvas became a page of words, and the paint, a pen.
i labored over the master piece, and when i was done, i declared:
'what God tells me, i will give out, pour down like rain,

it is called poetry; the lyrics of the soul.

peppermint americano

went to coffee with a friend this afternoon.
course, he ended up being half an hour late.... lol so i had time to read my bible. romans, as usual.
but it was nice hanging out with him again. no longer an enemy status. lol i know that sounds weird....

of course the baristuds were pretty awesome there too ;D so cute to look at.

hello life.

ramblings of a bored individual.

well, we went vegan this weekend.
this is hard! hahaha

i think i'm cutting my bangs today.

how many people can walk outside barefoot in november. the foothills have wind but warrrrrrm wind. it's like 60 today and could get to 70. but only in the foothills. lol oh washington....

WHY WOMEN IN CHINA DO NOT GET BREAST CANCER

I had no alternative but to die or to try to find a cure for myself.
I am a scientist - surely there was a rational explanation for this cruel illness that affects one in 12 women in the UK ?
I had suffered the loss of one breast, and undergone radiotherapy. I was now receiving painful chemotherapy, and had been seen by some of the country's most eminent specialists. But, deep down, I felt certain I was facing death. I had a loving husband, a beautiful home and two young children to care for. I desperately wanted to live.

Fortunately, this desire drove me to unearth the facts, some of which were known only to a handful of scientists at the time.

Anyone who has come into contact with breast cancer will know that certain risk factors - such as increasing age, early onset of womanhood, late onset of menopause and a family history of breast cancer - are completely out of our control. But there are many risk factors, which we can control easily.

These "controllable" risk factors readily translate into simple changes that we can all make in our day-to-day lives to help prevent or treat breast cancer. My message is that even advanced breast cancer can be overcome because I have done it.

The first clue to understanding what was promoting my breast cancer came when my husband Peter, who was also a scientist, arrived back from working in China while I was being plugged in for a chemotherapy session.

He had brought with him cards and letters, as well as some amazing herbal suppositories, sent by my friends and science colleagues in China .

The suppositories were sent to me as a cure for breast cancer. Despite the awfulness of the situation, we both had a good belly laugh, and I remember saying that this was the treatment for breast cancer in China , then it was little wonder that Chinese women avoided getting the disease.

Those words echoed in my mind. Why didn't Chinese women in China get breast cancer? I had collaborated once with Chinese colleagues on a study of links between soil chemistry and disease, and I remembered some of the statistics.

The disease was virtually non-existent throughout the whole country. Only one in 10,000 women in China will die from it, compared to that terrible figure of one in 12 in Britain and the even grimmer average of one in 10 across most Western countries. It is not just a matter of China being a more rural country, with less urban pollution. In highly urbanized Hong Kong , the rate rises to 34 women in every 10,000 but still puts the West to shame.

The Japanese cities of Hiroshima and Nagasaki have similar rates. And remember, both cities were attacked withnuclear weapons, so in addition to the usual pollution-related cancers, one would also expect to find some radiation-related cases, too. The conclusion we can draw from these statistics strikes you with some force. If a Western woman were to move to industrialized, irradiated Hiroshima , she would slash her risk of contracting breast cancer by half. Obviously this is absurd. It seemed obvious to me that some lifestyle factor not related to pollution, urbanization or the environment is seriously increasing the Western woman's chance of contracting breast cancer.

I then discovered that whatever causes the huge differences in breast cancer rates between oriental and Western countries, it isn't genetic.

Scientific research showed that when Chinese or Japanese people move to the West, within one or two generations their rates of breast cancer approach those of their host community.

The same thing happens when oriental people adopt a completely Western lifestyle in Hong Kong . In fact, the slang name for breast cancer in China translates as 'Rich Woman's Disease'. This is because, in China, only the better off can afford to eat what is termed ' Hong Kong food'. The Chinese describe all Western food, including everything from ice cream and chocolate bars to spaghetti and feta cheese, as "Hong Kong food", because of its availability in the former British colony and its scarcity, in the past, in mainland China .

So it made perfect sense to me that whatever was causing my breast cancer and the shockingly high incidence in this country generally, it was almost certainly something to do with our better-off, middle-class, Western lifestyle.

There is an important point for men here, too. I have observed in my research that much of the data about prostate cancer leads to similar conclusions.

According to figures from the World Health Organization, the number of men contracting prostate cancer in rural China is negligible, only 0.5 men in every 100,000. In England, Scotland and Wales , however, this figure is 70 times higher. Like breast cancer, it is a middle-class disease that primarily attacks the wealthier and higher socio-economic groups, those that can afford to eat rich foods.

I remember saying to my husband, "Come on Peter, you have just come back from China . What is it about the Chinese way of life that is so different?"

Why don't they get breast cancer?'We decided to utilize our joint scientific backgrounds and approach it logically.

We examined scientific data that pointed us in the general direction of fats in diets.Researchers had discovered in the 1980s that only l4% of calories in the average Chinese diet were from fat, compared to almost 36% in the West. But the diet I had been living on for years before I contracted breast cancer was very low in fat and high in fibre.Besides, I knew as a scientist that fat intake in adults has not been shown to increase risk for breast cancer in most investigations that have followed large groups of women for up to a dozen years.Then one day something rather special happened. Peter and I have worked together so closely over the years that I am not sure which one of us first said: "The Chinese don't eat dairy produce!"

It is hard to explain to a non-scientist the sudden mental and emotional 'buzz' you get when you know you have had an important insight. It's as if you have had a lot of pieces of a jigsaw in your mind, and suddenly, in a few seconds, they all fall into place and the whole picture is clear.

Suddenly I recalled how many Chinese people were physically unable to tolerate milk, how the Chinese people I had worked with had always said that milk was only for babies, and how one of my close friends, who is of Chinese origin, always politely turned down the cheese course at dinner parties.

I knew of no Chinese people who lived a traditional Chinese life who ever used cow or other dairy food to feed their babies. The tradition was to use a wet nurse but never, ever, dairy products.

Culturally, the Chinese find our Western preoccupation with milk and milk products very strange. I remember entertaining a large delegation of Chinese scientists shortly after the ending of the Cultural Revolution in the 1980s.

On advice from the Foreign Office, we had asked the caterer to provide a pudding that contained a lot of ice cream. After inquiring what the pudding consisted of, all of the Chinese, including their interpreter, politely but firmly refused to eat it, and they could not be persuaded to change their minds.

At the time we were all delighted and ate extra portions!

Milk, I discovered, is one of the most common causes of food allergies. Over 70% of the world's population are unable to digest the milk sugar, lactose, which has led nutritionists to believe that this is the normal condition for adults, not some sort of deficiency. Perhaps nature is trying to tell us that we are eating the wrong food. Before I had breast cancer for the first time, I had eaten a lot of dairy produce, such as skimmed milk, low-fat cheese and yogurt. I had used it as my main source of protein. I also ate cheap but lean minced beef, which I now realized was probably often ground-up dairy cow.

In order to cope with the chemotherapy I received for my fifth case of cancer, I had been eating organic yogurts as a way of helping my digestive tract to recover and repopulate my gut with 'good' bacteria.

Recently, I discovered that way back in 1989 yogurt had been implicated in ovarian cancer. Dr Daniel Cramer of Harvard University studied hundreds of women with ovarian cancer, and had them record in detail what they normally ate. Wish I'd been made aware of his findings when he had first discovered them. Following Peter's and my insight into the Chinese diet, I decided to give up not just yogurt but all dairy produce immediately. Cheese, butter, milk and yogurt and anything else that contained dairy produce - it went down the sink or in the rubbish. It is surprising how many products, including commercial soups, biscuits and cakes, contain some form of dairy produce. Even many proprietary brands of margarine marketed as soya, sunflower or olive oil spreads can contain dairy produce.I therefore became an avid reader of the small print on food labels.

Up to this point, I had been steadfastly measuring the progress of my fifth cancerous lump with callipers and plotting the results. Despite all the encouraging comments and positive feedback from my doctors and nurses, my own precise observations told me the bitter truth.

My first chemotherapy sessions had produced no effect - the lump was still the same size. Then I eliminated dairy products. Within days, the lump started to shrink.About two weeks after my second chemotherapy session and one week after giving up dairy produce, the lump in my neck started to itch. Then it began to soften and to reduce in size. The line on the graph, which had shown no change, was now pointing downwards as the tumour got smaller and smaller.

And, very significantly, I noted that instead of declining exponentially (a graceful curve) as cancer is meant to do, the tumour's decrease in size was plotted on a straight line heading off the bottom of the graph, indicating a cure, not suppression (or remission) of the tumour.

One Saturday afternoon after about six weeks of excluding all dairy produce from my diet, I practised an hour of meditation then felt for what was left of the lump. I couldn't find it. Yet I was very experienced at detecting cancerous lumps - I had discovered all five cancers on my own. I went downstairs and asked my husband to feel my neck. He could not find any trace of the lump either.

On the following Thursday I was due to be seen by my cancer specialist at Charing Cross Hospital in London . He examined me thoroughly, especially my neck where the tumour had been. He was initially bemused and then delighted as he said, "I cannot find it." None of my doctors, it appeared, had expected someone with my type and stage of cancer (which had clearly spread to the lymph system) to survive, let alone be so hale and hearty.

My specialist was as overjoyed as I was. When I first discussed my ideas with him he was understandably sceptical. But I understand that he now uses maps showing cancer mortality in China in his lectures, and recommends a non-dairy diet to his cancer patients.

I now believe that the link between dairy produce and breast cancer is similar to the link between smoking and lung cancer. I believe that identifying the link between breast cancer and dairy produce, and then developing a diet specifically targeted at maintaining the health of my breast and hormone system, cured me.

It was difficult for me, as it may be for you, to accept that a substance as 'natural' as milk might have such ominous health implications. But I am a living proof that it works and, starting from tomorrow, I shall reveal the secrets of my revolutionary action plan.

Extracted from Your Life in Your Hands, by Professor Jane Plan