we're already half way through the week, thank goodness.
it sucks when we're walking through life and it's not fun. not good. rather depressing.
it's pretty big to say 'i'm tired of life'. very big indeed..
i have nothing good to put out here anymore.
i'm walking through blindly.
i'm dreading the day, because of the people i "have" to be involved with.
i'm tired of getting walked all over.
of bitterness.
of negative energy.
of unbrokeness of the will, ONLY to the point where we can't seem to compromise each other.
the feel of abandonment of friends, when really it's not that..
of hating my life, and having to guard my heart oh so carefully.
of knowing i have a vulnerable heart, and there seems to be nothing i can do about it.
of the fights i have with my family..
of myself.

i'm trying so hard to keep praying, with faith. trying to stay positive. but it's so hard to do so. even though i know, my help comes from Him.
it's so hard to stay upright in a boat while the worst storm is throwing it about.