tuesday night..

sometimes this path isn't going to make sense, but sometimes it is.
things fall into place, but there are things that don't make sense
changes in that mysterious and dark path we take that we don't know if they're right or wrong
must we live in fear through it all?
but then again, why live like you're waiting to die?
you only have one life to live, might as well go forward boldly and in confidence!

this week has been crazy, and it's not like i've done anything big. sadly enough, i'm thinking i was having withdrawals.... my best friend went to college. this includes withdrawals with God. a friend of mine kinda opened up my eyes last night, and without even realizing this... we were talking about heavy hearts, and it kinda just hit me..
man has this all made sense.
i needed last night. lets hope i continue walking forward and instead of hiding in a corner. it's not like you can hide.. God's right there holding out His hand anyways <3



BEST FAVORITE VERSE EVER: 1thess 5:17 - pray constantly.

charmed.

it's like the puzzle is put in place, the wrong begins to right
that exhilarated feeling, lasts through the night.
so i'll begin to dance in the rain, so no one will see me cry...
i'd still lay down my life, for you, i'd die.
hopeless, they say, hopeless i may
so i shall wander, and correct my mistakes,
if love could bring me here, then love it shall take.

so the vagabond set out into the dark starry night
never to look back, but looking forward?
flying with, that hopeful? kite,
with all their might, armed their sword

like a candle in the wind,
fluttering all around
not making sense
not making any rhyme
wondering where in this maze you are
and what love really is....
if the wrong begins to right, and the puzzle piece fits into place,
why doesn't this all make sense,
why doesn't it rhyme?
all mysteries should have an end...
happy ending or no

if people knew how to make peace with each other
we'd all be in love and we'd all let music drive us into a dance no one would be able to stop
we'd dance until our deaths within our own red shoes
a circle around the earth because everyone loved us for love started us
and love shall kill us, till death do we part.

charmed.

I START DANCING NEXT WEEK!!!!!!!!!!

bubbly

i love it when you find someone that actually understands.
that you find yourself trusting when you don't even know them.


those walls you so carefully built up again,
are they for naught? for loss, or for the right thing this time?
don't forget.....
how many times does it take to remember, to learn?


walk through that garden of roses you have, that le jardin de roses, or rose garden - roseraie.
remember. see the scars from it, see the roses. count them.
do you want to add all the more before it's time?
remember your white one wishing for a mate.
not a full cage waiting for one to share like wild animals waiting to devour
wait, darling, wait for me
stop darling, wait for me
rose for rose.

end of the month already?!

wow, i haven't really been blogging much!
well, God's been great in my life. really, he has.

i got more hours at my job!! [: i work in the family programs more now at the "adventure zone" - i get to go play with kids for 3 hours. :D awesome!!! two more days, i'm so thankful for this.
i just got a lovebird!!!! my mom's going to start back into breeding some, we're getting the third pair today, and i just got my first pet that i bought for myself. it's a nine month old one, so it'll be a little more of a challenge to train him, but i'm happy. he's an australian cinnamon peach-faced lovebird, and his name it apollo.

my best friend went to college a week ago. i can't believe what a connection we had! God truly gave her to me [:

hopefully i will be starting dance soon; it's killing me not having it.
and i just switched my wednesday morning dance class to tuesday afternoons, so i'm hoping i'll have kids going there!

well, about to go to cosmopolis... lol yes a city near ocean shores.... hahaha
God bless.

once upon a dream [disney's sleeping beauty]

I know you, I walked with you
once upon a dream.
I know you, the gleam in your eyes
is so familiar a gleam
Yet I know it's true that visions
are seldom all they seem
But if I know you, I know
what you'll do
You'll love me at once
the way you did once
Upon a dream

La, la, la ...

But if I know you I know
what you'll do
You'll love me at once the way
You did once
Upon a dream.

I know you, I walked with you
once upon a dream.
I know you, the gleam in your eyes
is so familiar a gleam
And I know it's true that visions
are seldom all they seem
But if I know you, I know
what you'll do
You'll love me at once
the way you did once
Upon a dream

woah-oh

wow, i haven't written in a while!
just back from the puyallup fair..
went to the kiss 106.1 concert -
saw the ready set, a rocket to the moon, forever the sickest kids, and we the kings.
pretty good, except for the two itty bitty girls in front of me that absolutely pissed me off in everyway possible.
i won't ever go there.

now my entire body aches, my left ear is ringing, i have a headache, some pics i'll post soon, and i'm off to bed.
peace out, girl scouts!

help me understand?

ramblings of a lonely being

it's kinda funny how no matter how hard i wish i know it'll never happen.
it's a good thing, i don't need to get any more attached then i already am.
but you'd be surprised how much that one little note means to me.
call it the world. a whole new world.
be my aladdin, and i'll be your jasmine?

life is the never-ending path

down our path of life there are always choices,
the forks on the path;
a single choice can take us one way down the road, this way or that way
the question is, are we on the right path?
each decision takes u right down or left
the path shows and gives us the wrong turns to learn from,
the people we're meet who end up changing our lives,
the experiences which make us stronger
the wrong turns keep us going to catch up to the "right ones"
but they are there for us to completely know nothing of life,
because would you really want the boring life where nothing interesting came along or any adventures arrived?
our questions keep us thriving, to keep going on to find those answers
the path is designed specifically for you
but what people don't understand is that you mark the path.
there is no one forcing you to go one way or another. all you. only you.
so will you take the chance?
start walking. see where it goes.

smile.

love how the simplest things can make your day!

so sweet,

how is that sometimes you actually still find a way to make me cry?
i found your note the other day... the one thing you actually gave me as something of yours. i had to actually listen to our song the other da. first time since april.
and the fact i'm still part of your life... just brought me to tears.


you have no idea how much it means to me about the fact that we are still friends. we did not part ways and be done with it. we are still strong. you're one of my best friends. i can say i love you and mean so many things.

God gave me you for a little bit for something.

"i quit. i'm over you. i fell so hard. i was always there when you needed someone to talk to. yeah, so basically i'm tired of being just a friend or chasing you. so if you want me, i'm here, but i'm done wasting all my time on someone who doesn't care."

God is so good!

this summer i have:
a. jumped off a cliff into a river
b. slept under the stars
c. took a friend to my grandma's lake [finally]
d. went camping with 14 kids, aka my wonderful bible study!
e. found an intact sanddollar at the ocean
f. learned to realize again and again, that boys won't give you what you want. they're insufficient and play and toy with your feelings.
g. joined a bible study.
h. gotten so much closer to God
i. started to read my bible a lot more now
j. asked for things and received things back from God.
k. made new wonderful God-fearing friends
l. found out God has a very interesting sense of humor...
m. started to dance again; remembered the passion i have had.